So as you may know I have a relatively minor health condition and it means I take a tablet every day and probably will take tablets every day for the rest of my life. The tablets are relatively easy - they are just a synthesized version of what my body is a bit rubbish at making. Also: you may know my Dad has had a fair few massive heart attacks in his life which is a bit scary so I was trying to make sure that would not happen to me - cholesterol was the big scary giant in the room for that one.
Somehow though this fetishisation of cakes got to me. I went from someone who has always eaten fairly sensibly (but with a bit of a love affair with bread) to someone who had cake a lot. Someone who ate chocolate a lot. Someone who drank fizzy pop every day. I went from mostly eating light food to mostly eating heavy food. I stopped being someone who mainlines clementines like they are going out of fashion and started being someone who had to bin the contents of the fruit bowl every two weeks.
This whole thing made me feel sad, and tired ALL THE TIME, and I gained weight. The tired feeling made me less interested in exercising and the sad feeling made me just want to stay in my house and eat all the food. Not a good way to be.
See I can really get a kick out of my time alone but I was in a place where I filled alone time with episodes of Keeping up with the Kardashians and eating so much food. It is really weird.
Eventually something happened. I have no appetite. None. I think I ate so much I am full. Completely and utterly full. I am still cooking for me and M and trying to eat a bit healthier a version of what we had slipped into but there is not appetite to eat it all anymore.
So I would say that means it is time to switch it up a bit. We're moving. We'll have a new home soon. Why not start a clean slate there with some new things. I hope to go climbing and swimming. I hope to do enough yoga to assist with the climbing (I seem to have lost all the muscle in my core) and I hope to get back to being someone who drinks a TON of water, sleeps a lot and eats lots of vegetables. That person must still be in there right?
And in the meantime if you're feeling kind of cruddy, just stick right by your body, and don't eat too-too-too-too much fried food...